I was reading this thing the other day where it said someone can love you and not know how to take care of you

It made me worry that maybe I don’t take care of Noah as best I could. I know I love him, but am I giving him my absolute best, my absolute best level of CARE beyond the basics and I got really honest and realised I’m probably not … and why? Because I don’t take care of me

I don’t actually know how

If you don’t know what you need to take care of yourself how can you manage what another person needs to take the absolute best care of them?

So now I have this new experiment and journey to find out how I can take the best level of care of myself,what do I need? and it’s sad because that’s the first time I’ve really asked myself that question and the answers were so simple I can’t even believe I am not taking genuine care of myself daily

Then it was a spiral into, do I think I don’t deserve this? and who modeled that for me?

I want to model to Noah that he deserves not only the best care from me but that he deserves to care for himself too and make good choices and give himself time and presence everyday and that’s going to roll over into his outer world too

So here I go off into the land of care

I’ll let you know what it’s like

Isn’t it wild that the thing that inspired me to care for me is because I know I will then be able to care for my son EVEN BETTER, give him so much more.

This type of love,the unconditional kind, will turn you back towards yourself so you can then turn it back out to everyone around you. I think that’s been the simplest point all along and I completely forgot about myself and now I’m noticing how much that has leaked out into the rest of my life and at the expense of those around me.

What do you need? Do you know? And if you aren’t inspired to be better for you can you do it for someone else so they can get the best whilst it becomes second nature to love yourself first and have this constant folding in and out so it’s consistent and free?