She Wants To Be Read

Let go! I know it hurts to feel him unravel from you  But you must  Just trust  Let go! I know it’s scary and you cannot see up ahead  But you are never alone, I promise Let go! Why are you holding on so tight to something that hurts? If you just unclench your fists…

I wish I could roar like a dragon Just once  Get this muck out of the pit of my stomach All the words I wasn’t allowed to speak or that fell on deaf ears out of my throat  Burnt up and out through my mouth  In one ear piercing threat  (You will hear me and…

There’s this new sprout of jasmine We planted it after we lost the baby Inside the grief we did this thing that felt so peaceful and like the only thing I could have done that day Put our hands in the dirt And now I see this little sprout After the second time However different…

You dodged a bullet  You dodged a bullet  You dodged a bullet  Yes I know So why does it feel like I still got hit?

Maybe a permission slip you didn’t know you needed  Enjoy it all  Even inside the  “What ifs” and the “I wonders” and “ I wish I hadn’t” The sun still cracks between the clouds in the afternoon while your driving and Time after Time will play on the radio making you wind down your window and…

Limbo It’s like we are both living inside the life we know could’ve been But isn’t  And neither of us are willing to let go of that because finally we are here  We are together  But it’s nothing like we thought it would be  So everyday  It’s bittersweet  And a little bit  painful And until…

We built this the wrong way We both came with our crumbling walls Each waiting for the other to pass the mortar and pack it down nice and strong Neither of us willing to move Neither of us willing to just let their walls fall down to build something totally new So instead we remained…

Please teach me how to love myself

This phrase helped me to digest and accept my  birth story and parts of my post partum journey and now I consider it for all aspects where there may be a sense of regret or lack. So often in life we wonder “what if” or ask “why didn’t that go how I wanted it to”…

I was reading this thing the other day where it said someone can love you and not know how to take care of you It made me worry that maybe I don’t take care of Noah as best I could. I know I love him, but am I giving him my absolute best, my absolute…